A big part of me would die too.
I know that sounds really melodramatic, or possibly as if I have no life--but it's true. There is this big fear in me that one day fandom will cease to be as brilliant and bright as it was when I first arrived (as a lurker) at fourteen. That's been ten years, loves, TEN YEARS of my life finding meaning in words people, like me, had written.
The more I write the more I lose sight of the bigger picture and so I've decided after these fests I am taking a break from writing and I am going to go full on cheerleader/reader/occasional gift writer. I want more people to get their voices out there I want to witness the birth of new fandom stars and prolific writers. And, more than that I want to witness the quiet brilliance of some almost unheard voices.
There is brilliance in you all and I am just waiting for you to show it to me. :) Pink Elephant in the Fandom Living Room?
This is what brought it about and Fray says it so much better than I ever could (because come on it's FRAY ;D)
So I wanna know, what can we do to keep fandom alive and strong? I don't want it to become some closed circle of cliques where lurkers or people just getting into HP feel as if they will never belong. Fuck, it took me a good two years to actually get more than three fandom friends and even those I was wary of bothering too much because I felt like an outsider.
And I know you can't like everyone. God knows I don't but I try and some people I mesh with more than others. BUT welcoming the newbies in isn't about meshing right away, right? It's about letting them know they are not alone and about stepping out of our cotton pants and slipping into lacy danger panties ;) Let's try something new. And the whole "OMG THIS SUCKS" attitude that comes from writers (and I am guilt of thinking this just like probably every one of you are) is something we need to dust off. Some people take a little longer to find their talent than others that doesn't mean they deserve comments any less, if anything they need them more (or PMs preferably as publicly humiliating someone is never a nice thing IMO) to help them hone their craft. I know I'd be complete shite without Curi and Annie and Rike.
Anyways, you guys are probably like LOOK KISS IS HERE, WASN'T SHE GOING ON HIATUS? Yeah, yeah--it's partial hiatus and this was just something I felt I had to say, though my thoughts are always so sporadic I am not sure what the main point was anymore other than PLEASE NO TO BE DISBANDING AND LEAVING ME TO PLAY IN THIS BOX ALONE I'd cry an ocean :(